By Fadel Abdallah, August 14 at 8:02 pm

It’s a crappy world fadel, and Nietzsche wrote somewhere that ‘the things that don’t kill us make us stronger’.

I said it before and will repeat it again: that indeed many who survive horrible wars would envy the dead. And this is the impression I got after listening to these two Iraqi ladies speaking in Arabic. Though I was always proud that I know five languages, after listening to these heart-breaking stories, the first reaction I had was a feeling of envy for those who did not know the language to understand firsthand what was being said.

Then after a mixture of strange emotions, I broke out into uncontrollable sobbing.

Then, after I calmed down, I found myself saying:

God damn political-military America! And God damn the day I became an American 30 years ago, since I now can’t escape the fact that I contributed to this twenty-first century savagery with my taxpayer’s money and against my will!   

I myself now feel envious of the dead and wish I was never been born! This is how bad I feel ashamed of my existence since I could not do any thing to stop all this evil and barbarity brought upon the people of Iraq!